Going Green

I had my first “green smoothie” today and I hated it.  Too many berry seeds but also, and I’m sorry for the graphics, but I spent too long in the restroom afterward.  My body is not used to that much fiber/nutrients in one sitting.  Obviously this is a huge flashing sign screaming change your diet!!!!! I definitely have to take this as a hint from my body that I need more of these nutrients and less of the processed stuff.  I like that this is changing into a lifestyle but I have to admit that it is really hard to not want to see more immediate results. I have thought about adding in a supplement that one of my friends uses but I don’t like that it’s not natural.  Then I thought about this ‘military diet’ that I keep hearing about with the three days on and the four days off but I have a feeling that might mess with my metabolism.  I may have to up my work outs and really start to push myself.  I have a serious love-hate relationship with the gym…hate going and I hate the process but I LOVE being sore.  It’s such a great reminder of how I worked really hard the day before.  

It’s Easter tomorrow and of course my family will be eating a HUGE dinner and most likely munching from the time we wake up until dinner.  My gym is closed so if it’s good weather I’m going to try and go running outside or do some stadiums.  I have to remember to watch my portion control too.  

Lifestyles are hard to change but I think it will be good in the end 🙂 

Today my friend said something I thought was hilarious, she said “we’re on the LGN diet and there is no easy way to get results.” Of course the funny part is that LGN is an acronym she made up for ‘look good naked’ hahaha clever girl.  

HAPPY EASTER ALL!!

Backwards

So I’m eating healthy for the most part and I have started working out more than normal but due to my calorie intake I can’t work out as heavily as I want to.  I always hear that diet is 80 percent of weight loss which I do believe but right now it feels like I’m not losing as much weight and that I’m just always irritable.  I hope that this feeling of hating everyone and not really wanting to do anything goes away.  I think that eventually my stomach will shrink and I will get full faster with less food, but I think the trick then would be that I need to really pay attention and listen to my body.  I heard somewhere that when you take your first deep breath during a meal is when you are full…I don’t know if I ever take deep breaths and if I do I don’t really notice it.  

I cannot continue to move backwards in my diet and have this constant battle of “oh I’ll start my diet on Monday” every single week.  If I stop restarting I’ll be able to see some results but I think it’s going to take a while.  

I promise myself that I won’t cheat on my body anymore and that I will stop saying terrible things about it because this body is a gift that should be treated well and that should have good nutrition and care.  Best gift ever.  

Triggers

So this morning started out alright.  I didn’t get much sleep last night with a two year old sad that he “lost his parents”.  It was actually adorable that he kept saying that.  I’m babysitting all weekend while the parents are away in Vegas.  But like I said, very little sleep.  

I have realized that I tend to want junk food when I feel tired.  It’s so easy and the sugar or whatever makes me feel better, like comfort food. With little sleep also comes the tantrums, not from me but from the two year old.  Babysitting is the BEST form of birth control out there! Anyway, lunch was Carl’s Jr, yet again a bad decision.  I stopped half way through because I decided I would rather feel hungry than eat that junk.  Dinner tonight is going to be FILLED with vegetables!! Trying to drink as much water as possible but I feel like i’m going to internally drown myself. OK, maybe i’m being dramatic but it is hard to drink a lot of water, especially when I pee every ten minutes.  Sorry for the info.  Maybe getting my sister on board or even my mother would help me? Someone who I can feel responsible toward.  I’ll also have more time tomorrow to get to the gym when I don’t have to worry about two little munchkins and their entertainment.  

I EAT BAD FOOD WHEN:

• I have had too little sleep the night before
• I am stressed out
• I eat out

Dinner tonight will be an improvement and that’s all I need to focus on.  

 

Stop thinking about what is bad for you, instead focus on what will help you reach your goal each day. 

Internal Battle

Seriously? I went what, 4 hours before I caved? I am babysitting my nephews and we went to the park to be active instead of sitting around and playing on iPods all day long (smart choice) then after one had a melt down because he would not take his nap we got ice cream (not that bad) but of course they were hungry and wanted food with their ice cream.  Now I’m regretting that terrible moment when your taste buds and your healthier half battle to see if you will actually get those onion rings or not.  Long story short, I got the onion rings….and a grilled cheese…then I finished my nephews ice cream because he was done.  OH MY GOSH!! WHAT DID I DO?! My initial reaction was to not get anything (I had a healthy snack I could eat at home) and then my mouth started watering and that’s when it went down hill.  But the worst part is, as we were sitting there I saw two girls walk up and get some food.  Now these girls were much younger and rode their bikes but I literally told myself that if they could eat junk food I could eat junk food. What? Why did I have to rationalize what I was doing?  Probably because I knew it wasn’t a smart choice.  

Now I’m home and hating myself. The boys are playing inside because it’s cold out and I’m just sitting here regretting that decision.  Luckily it is still somewhat early and I can have something healthy later on or just not eat the rest of the night.  It seems as though once I tell myself I can’t eat something all I want is that something.  I’m really only in competition with myself here and so far I think I’m losing.  

Tomorrow will be a better day. Tomorrow will be a healthier day.  Tomorrow will be good. 

 

“Losing Weight is Hard, Maintaining Weight is Hard, Staying FAT is Hard….Choose Your Hard”

WHY AM I HERE? 

I have finally grown sick of myself eating whatever I want, drinking whatever I want, and complaining that I’m not my ideal body shape.  It seems that every blog out there is about weight loss and the cool new thing to try that is “guaranteed to drop 15 pounds in one week”. Yeah, right.

MY PAST?

Truth is, I used to be my ideal body shape and weight.  I grew up dancing and cheerleading so in my average 15 hour day, about 9 of those hours were filled with extreme activity.  Since high school I gained the ‘freshman 15’…or 25 in my case and stopped working out like I used to.  Running and being active used to be fun for me and now it’s a huge internal battle to get my ass to the gym.

TODAY? 

I wear lose shirts to hide my tummy and hate myself when I go through the drive through.  I drink too much Coke and eat too many chocolates.  I sit and home and watch too much TV and get tired too fast when I try to be active.  When I do work out it’s short lived and I spend more time staring the girls who have a better body and imagine how amazing my life would be if I were skinnier.  I know that sounds ridiculous but we all think that, right?

If I were thinner I would have that guy. If I were thinner I would want to go swimming.  If I were thinner I could wear any clothes and not have to shop for hours and hours.

We compare ourselves to everyone in the gym and think that for some reason their life is better because of their pant size.  Well, I’m DONE!!

THE BIG IDEA: 

Losing weight is hard work and it’s not going to be the most fun thing ever.  I will have moment of weakness and I will struggle but the end result and the way I feel will make the pain and sacrifices worth it.  This is more than losing weight, it’s about gaining self confidence, being able to keep up with friends, and making healthy choices so that my future is filled with memories instead of hospitals.

MY GOAL: 

I currently weigh 160 lbs and would like to be: 125 lbs

I can run a mile in 12 minutes and would like to run a: 8 minute mile

My natural waist right now is 37 inches and I would like to have a: 28 in waist

I usually have one Coke/day and eat fast food about 4X/week: in six months I want to be able to say I don’t drink soda and don’t eat fast food

THE PLAN:

After researching I have learned a few simple things:

• water is essential and you can’t have enough of it
• vegetables are basically a free for all
• meals should get smaller as the day goes on
• six meals a day is ideal
• abs are made in the kitchen but perfected in the gym
• change your work out routine often
• challenge yourself with a gym ‘frenemy’
• mistakes are OK
• counting calories sucks but it helps A LOT!
• 7-8 hours of sleep helps; no more, no less
• it’s a lifestyle not a six week ab blast with immediate results.

I will post my daily hardships and the things I think are noteworthy in my journey.  While some people may see this and follow, this is for me and for my own results.  Pictures might come, but for now I don’t feel brave enough to post any.